Here's the thing about alcohol. It makes you do and say a lot of things that may or may not be a good idea at the time.

Telling your better half that you love them for the first time while intoxicated cannot be classified under "good idea" Especially if you were dying to tell them while you were sober.

Not that it really matters. Thats what he told me this morning anyways. We know how we feel about eachother, and it didn't matter if I was drunk when I said it.

On a completely unrelated note, there is someone in my life who I'm not certain I want there anymore. Everything is a fight, and he doesn't want to hear about my life because he doesn't want to listen to how happy I am when he is not. He says so many things pertaining to how horribly depressed he is and how he can't change. It is endless. And it is inevidably always blamed on me, no matter how many times I apologise for the terrible things I have done in the past.

I keep feeling like I owe it to him to be supportive though. He has done so much for me in the past. But if I continue to be there for him emotionally, he will never change. He will continue to be miserable in his own life, and he will drag me down with him.

Last night after a heated discussion with said person, The Drummer and I were walking down the road and I found myself angry and shaking. All I could think was, "I am never angry. It is only this one person who makes me angry"

The Drummer held my hand as I vented, and somehow the anger melted away. But he should not have to calm me down. There should be no reason for me to be that angry in the first place.

If you meet someone and love them just the way they are, why is it wrong to stop loving them if they become someone completely different? If they become a person you wouldn't give the time of day, if you had just met them?