Do you ever feel a big black void where emotion is supposed to live?

Do you ever watch the world so vivid around you and wonder why you can't feel it?

I have someone in my life who I love very dearly, but frankly, is much too emotional. Everything is an issue, a fight, a concern. Everything has to be discussed for hours on end. I grow tired when I realize there is no end in sight. There never is.

We talk and talk. About him, about me, about anything and everything that bothers him. Over and over and over.Many times I become frustrated and tell him I don't want to talk anymore. I can't fix his problems. I can't fix my own.

He is hurt by the fact I have begun to refuse to be there for him. Sometimes I feel like a bad person for this. But the dance we do does not solve anything. It does not make anything better.

He pressures me. Makes me feel guilty for living my life. I feel like if he isn't, than I shouldn't either. I should sit at home with him and talk about being sad. But I'm not sad. I want to live my life.

And I don't think I should have to feel guilty for being happy.